Its not easy to bring a life to this world :-/

Recalling from the day I suspect Jenell de presence till confirm her presence . That night is really filled with worries . Mainly I and hubby is really way too young and not ready to get a baby . Although to people out there , there might be much younger parents than us . Not to mention , we did have the thought of don't wan her :-/ but at the moment I see her through ultra scan , I truly smile . 

Being in BMT , hubby can't go through alot of things with me . Most of the times , I will have to go for all the check up session on my own . I'm a poly student who get pregnant when she's still academic year , it don't really reflect good on me or the school . True enough my programmer chair did aak me to consider properly whether I will want continue my studies since when I told her this news , it's a new start of a semester .

I told her firmly " I want to go through everything no matter how hard it going to be , no matter how people look at me "

So I didn't told anyone about my pregnancy except a few close friends . I was trying my best to hide and avoid everyone while going lesson as normal . I was wrong , the looks on people face changes as the baby bumps grows . Finally as the bump grows , I getting more n more unwell toward the end of the semester . At last I can't tahan , there's a day when I have a bad tummy aches , I just can't get up of bed on myself . (FYI I was not alone at home at that point of time ) I called out for help from my sil , who knows she just throw me a hot pack ask me to put it at the tummy to cure the cramp . Having the pain for couple hours , I know something's not right , the pain is just like contraction :-/ Hubby not at home , sil 's ignorance , I ring up my own mummy . Immediately I was admitted into hospital , shocking news is that I am having pre-mature labour with 3cm dilated without water bag burst which means Jenell will be out anytime from now ??!!! Omg she's only 29 weeks with 1.3kg weight . Although the next day is cny eve but all on my mind is all about how can she out right now ?? She will need to be in icu :( the expenses (at least 67k ) the dangers the development , all the worries make me break down in the delivery suite of kkh . I kept plead doctor to save baby if anything happen , she's my everything and everything , nothing can happen to her .

So the doctor after discussion with doctor Adrain , decide to put me on drip and some injection to strengthen baby lungs . Trust me the injection in thighs is really no kidding and the medication flowing inside blood vessels :( 

Anyway after hours inside delivery suite , Hearing all the pushing and yells from the mummies to let their babies to be the first snake baby . I was urging my baby don't come out yet , she no need to be the first snake baby yet . 

Total I was in hospital for a 2 weeks of lying on bed whole day and can't walk around till I insist discharge for my final examination as I know princess have been gd girl of not let me suffer during schooling , I can't let her down and failed my exams . 

Thank god that My baby is safe and sound till she hit 36weeks to out . Even TMC nurses praise me for my bravery . ;)

So That's will explain the light birth weight of hers ??

People , if you read this post , please give ur mummy a hug or kiss on cheeks . 

Motherly love is never easy and they might lose their life anytime during birth .